Mama's Baby

You are my heart outside my chest
I've made mistakes but I did my best
If you only take one thing from all your years with me
This is what I would want it to be
Even before you were given birth
You had countless unending worth
I so wish I could give you more
More love, skills, wealth, and wisdom before you leave my door
Abandon all the thoughts of guilt that keep you from the sky
Forgive yourself and others too, you'll help yourself to fly
Consider and dismiss when someone judges what you do
Do the things you know are right, to thine own self be true
I am proud of you whether you're quiet, calm, or wild
Nothing can stop Mama's love for you, you'll always be my child

Mourn the Little Girl

Ponytails and pale pink dress, lace around the neck and arms
Rosy cheeks and she's no less than all of innocence' sweet charms
How could she know she was the prey dancing in the middle of harm's way
Then she's told that she's to blame, mourn the little girl in shame

Blazing eyes and pouty lips, curses pouring out like mad
Little hands upon her hips, why is that little girl so bad
She hates her life but cannot tell because of threats that he will kill
She acts her fear out into rage, mourn the little girl on stage

Career women, mothers, wives, search for safety but cannot trust
Battle to save their inner lives, what is love and what is lust
Where is a mother to cry for her end, father protect, avenge, defend
Will a man believe her heart is pure, mourn the little girls they were

unknown

purple anger, stale regret
apologies I never met
a steady path without an end
familiar face but not a friend
unknown voices, repeated theme
deja vu inside a dream
chilly memories, yellow pain
clockwise but against the grain
static dry emotion state
absent karma, fortune, fate
quest for peace is worthless now
not a promise, not a vow
cynical, I watch the dance
there's no danger in a chance
immune to enchant or charm
remains to only do no harm
corners never fit to round
not lost but then never found
logic none can understand
same agenda never planned
moderation in extreme
deadly toxic silent scream
buried treasure deep in earth
desperate to be given birth
desperate also to remain
safe in shelter from the rain

Hated

I know they say a lot about me when I'm not around
When I walk into the room nobody makes a sound
I've asked and talked and cried and prayed and tried to make amends
Apologized and watched my mouth, why can't we all be friends
They tell me there's no problem and the problem lies with me
Which statement shall I accept as truth because they can't both be
It stands to reason I can't change what's wrong if I don't know
There's not a thing that I can do but watch their hatred grow
To one who should defend me I asked what can I do
He said they need someone to hate, I don't know why but they chose you
Each day I fail to measure up stretches out to years
While they continue blaming me for everybody's tears
How long till the unfounded anger toward me is abated
How long must I go on pretending I don't know I'm hated

A Thousand Butterflies

One thousand bright live butterflies are trapped inside of me
They would look so beautiful if anyone could see
They're hostage to an unknown foe whose ransom can't be paid
Imprisoned by mistakes I didn't realize I had made
So few know that they exist that I am left alone
To try to free the butterflies from prison on my own

In my heart are great things I could do or learn or say
But lack the strength to do because I gave too much away
I failed to use good judgment while I thought that I'd done right
And now don't know if this would be a battle worth the fight
If the butterflies were set free would anybody care
Or should I just give up and let the butterflies die there